I can wait no longer. I must start with healthy eating and no more than 1200 calories tomorrow. After years of losing and gaining I'm feeling so inadequate to know how to eat. And that is so silly. I have been reading and trying to learn about nutrition for decades. It must be the depression of knowing that I have to plow the same ole ground again. I read one of my favorite bloggers tonight who says to start now...not to wait until tomorrow or Monday. For one thing, I am so bloated that I am miserable. This is something new for me.
I wanted to wait to start until my new Bodybugg arrives. I used one for over a year and lost weight more easily than I've ever done. For the first time I learned why I "couldn't lose weight." I simply didn't move enough, and I didn't have a deficit of calories. My old bugg is not compatible with my 64-bit computer, so I finally bit the bullet and ordered the latest version. When I used it 2 years ago, I ate a lot of fruits and veggies and good foods, but I was also able to eat what I liked and let the bugg compute my calorie intake and calories burned. Well, I will try to sort it out tomorrow.
I was awake all night last night, so I tried to figure out how to start a blog. I haven't slept since Monday night. I've taken Ambien CR for several years, and I have that strange side-effect that causes me to get up during the night like I'm sleep walking and binge eat. Sometimes when I awaken in the morning I am shocked to see the remains of the cookies and candy that I've eaten. Although I always try to avoid sugar when I'm in my right mind, my lean husband keeps lots of sweets. He now locks the ice cream in a plastic tool box, before it goes in the freezer. And he is supposed to keep everything else locked in a duffle, but he sometimes thinks he'll just hide it. HA! I always find it. I haven't binged since last Monday night, but I haven't slept either.