In the depths of winter, I finally found within me an invincible summer.
---Albert Camus, author
Sunday, October 24, 2010
hCG - Day 14
I keep thinking this hCG is going to be a dream, and it won't work for me. This morning my total loss since October 10 is 14 pounds. I've lost the last 10 pounds that happened after June when I had the digestive problems. Now I'm 4 pounds into the weight I gained in February when my body went into shock from going off pain meds cold turkey. Then the 10 pounds gained after the first of the year when our things were in storage, and we were living with our daughter until we could find a house. At 170 was when I was wanting to throw myself on the floor, kicking and screaming, over my weight. Things can change quickly. There seems to be a one-to-one ratio between extreme stress and my weight gain. I don't suppose that is a brilliant deduction, but I do need to keep it in my consciousness.
This blog is to chronicle my weight loss and my life in general. After breast cancer and chemo in 1996, my weight jumped from 125 to 195. I have lost and gained many times since then. Each time I've reached my goal weight, I have had a traumatic experience and gained the weight back. I am in a place that is more sane now. Or maybe just less crazy. If not normal, then approaching normalcy. I need a way for accountability, and a blog seems a good way to do it. I do better with goals if I have visuals, even though I dread seeing the numbers and the pictures. This time, when I start on my diet, I’m approaching it with care and caution….not just jumping in without much thought. I bought several great books that are true-life accounts of weight loss. I want to understand other people who have had my experiences and who have persevered and reached their goal weight. I've started learning how to write a blog, and found out that there are a lot of people like me, trying to be accountable on a blog, and losing weight for the umpteenth time. And I thought I was unique.